Pictures from Aya's Diary

The medical examination

I go to the hospital in Nagoya with my mother (she wrote this in English).
Left the house at 9 AM. My little sister wasn't feeling well. She went to pre-school anyways, so that I can go to the doctor....poor sister.
11 AM, arrived at the hospital (Kokuritsu Nagoya Daigaku Fuzoku Byouin). I read a book while waiting for 3 hours, but I was nervous. I couldn't concentrate as usual, because I was so worried and scared. My mom tried to reassure me saying "I called Dr. Eitsurou so there's nothing to worry," but...

I was finally called. My heart was beating fast.
My mom explains to the doctor,
1. I fell and cut my chin (people would usually fall on their hands, but I    fell on my face).
2. I walk wobbly (my knees don't bend well).
3. I lost weight.
4. My movement is slow (I can't react quickly).
While listening, I became scared. My busy mom had been watching me so carefully...I guess she noticed everything...but I'm a little relieved.
Now, the small things I was worried about has been informed to the doctor. Finally, all my worries will be gone.
I sat on the round seat and looked into the doctor's face. I was relieved, because she wore glasses and had a gentle smile. I closed my eyes and lifted up my hands and brought my index finger closer to my face. I stood on one foot. I layed on the bed and repeatedly bent and straightened my legs. The doctor hit my knee with the hammer. The medical examination was finally over.
"Let's have a CT scan," the doctor said.
"Aya, it doesn't hurt or itch. It's just a machine that slices your head so they can look inside your head.
"Ehh~ slicing my head!?"
This is really important to me, so I didn't find what my mom said funny. The large machine slowly came down. My head fit perfectly as if I was in outer space.
"You can just lay there, don't move now," a lady in a white gown said, so I laid there, but I became sleepy.
I had to wait a long time, and after given a medicine, I got to go home.
Another task was added for me to do. If I can get better by drinking medicine, then I don't mind drinking a stomach full of them. Please doctor. If I'm a flower, please help from ruining the life of the bud, that hasn't blossomed yet.
The hospital is pretty far and I have school, so the doctor said I only have to come once a month. I promise to go and do as you say, so please make me better. The world's best, Nagoya Daigaku! Dr. Eitsurou! Please!

Thanks everyone for leaving comments in the chatterbox and some even commented on the entry (^^)// The support you guys give is awesome~ thank you and enjoy the second part of chapter 2.

- Kiwi

15 years old- The sickness creeping up

Sign

I think I've been losing weight lately.
Is it from skipping meals because of the loads of homework and science project?
I can't put my thought into action so I worry.
I blame myself but there seems to be no progress.
My energy just continues to drain.
I want to gain a little more weight.
Starting tomorrow, I need to act more according to the plan I wrote out before.

It was drizzling today. Walking to school holding a heavy bag and to make that worse, an umbrella, is a pain.
As I was having these negative thoughts, my knees popped and I fell forward at a narrow road about 100 meters from my house.
I hit my chin pretty badly. As I gently slid my hand on my chin, I felt the sticky blood covering my hands. I picked up the scattered bag and umbrella, turned back, and headed home.
My mom came out from the inside saying,"Did you forget something? You better hurry or you're going to be late."
"What's wrong?"
No words came out and all I could do was cry.
My mom quickly got a towel and wiped my face which was covered with blood. I felt the sand cutting through the wound.
She said,"We're gonna have to go to the doctor," and quickly helped me change into clean clothes, placed a band aid over my cut, and jumped into the car.
I got 2 stitches without any pain killer.
I grit my teeth and dealt with the pain, because it was my fault for being clumsy.
But more than that... I'm sorry mom for making you take a day off work.
I thought to myself that maybe my hands didn't help me when I fell, because I'm kind of slow... as I looked at my aching chin in the mirror.
But I'm glad it was under my chin. My future would be dark if a scar was left in a place where people can see.

My grades in P.E.
7th grade= B
8th grade= C
9th grade= D
I'm so frustrated! I guess I need to try harder.
I was hoping that the circuit training I did during summer vacation would help a little, but I guess not.
Well, I suppose it's because I didn't continue it long enough (the voice from the shadow= Exactly!)

In the morning, inside the kitchen where a slight light and breeze was slipping through the window with the yellow lace curtain, I cried.
"How come I'm the only one who is not athletic?"
Today, there is going to be a test on the balance beam.
My mom covered her eyes and said, "But Aya, it's okay because you are smart.You can just stick to whatever subject you enjoy and make use of that in the future.  You're good at English, so you should master that. English is an international language so I'm sure it will be of good use. So don't worry if you get a D in P.E..."
My tears had stopped falling. There was something left for me.

I shouldn't be such a crybaby.
My body won't move the way I want it to. Is it being anxious, because I skipped doing my homework that I can finish in 5 hours each day? No, that's not it, something in my body is starting to breaking down. I'm scared!
My heart feels as though its being squeezed. I wanna exercise. I wanna run. I wanna study. I wanna write neatly.

"Namida no Toka-ta (A tear's toccata)" is such a good song. I fell in love with it. When I eat while listening to that song, it makes the food taste even more delicious.

This is a discussion about my little sister.
All this time, I only noticed my sister's mean side, but I started to think that she is actually really nice. The reason for this, is because when we walk to school, my little brother leaves me behind and he just walks his own pace, but my sister walks with me.
Even when we cross the bridge, she holds my bag for me and says, "Make sure to hold onto the rails."

Slowly, my summer vacation mood is fading away.
After cleaning up dinner, I was about to go upstairs and my mom said, "Aya, come sit over here."
My mom looked very serious and I was getting nervous, thinking about what I was going to get punished for.
"Aya, lately your body is constantly looking like you're going to fall forward, and you walk very unsteadily moving form side to side, do you notice that? I've been watching and I'm worried. Let's go see a doctor."
I asked, "...which hospital?"
"Just leave it to me, I'll look for a trustworthy place."
My tears started to fall endlessly. I wanted to say "Thank you so much mom, and I'm sorry to make you worried," but I could not make any words come out of my mouth.
I wondered if my clumsiness is from staying up late at night, eating at different times, but thinking that there is something wrong with me and that's why I have to go see a doctor, left me to do nothing but cry. My eyes are starting to hurt from crying too much.

Sorry it took a while for me to update hehe but here is the first part of chapter 2 (^^)v

- Kiwi

14 years old- My family

Mary died...

Today is my birthday. I grew quite alot.
I think I need to thank my mom and dad.
I need to get much better grades, and be more healthy so I won't make them sad. In order to do that, I want to make this beginning of my youth important, without any regrets.

I'm going camping the day after tomorrow. I need to finish my homework so I won't have to worry about it.
Go!Go!Aya!

Tiger, the fierce dog next door ripped Mary's head off, killing her.
Mary who was very small, approached the monstrous Tiger with a friendly wagging tail. 
I yelled with all my might, "Mary no! Come back over here!" but...
Mary must be frustrated... she died without being able to say a word. If she wasn't born a dog, she wouldn't have died so fast. Mary please be happy somwehere else!

The new house is finished.
The large rooms on the eastside of the second floor is me and my sister's room. The ceieling is white. The wall is wooden brown. The scenery outside the window looks different than usual. I'm happy that I have my own room, but it seems too spacious and lonely. I wonder if I'll be able to sleep tonight.

Starting off all refreshed!

1. I'll wear t-shirts and pants(its easier to move around).
2. Chores to do everyday-- water the lawn, pick weeds, check for bugs behind the leaves of the one tomato vine I planted. Also check the leaves of the chrysanthemum for cockroaches, and if i find any, take care of it right away.
3.Not to slack on my homework
4.Other than that, write in my diary everyday.
I'm going to make sure I do all of these.

My Family

Dad 41 years old. Sometimes he has a bad temper, but he's nice.
Mom 40 years old. I look up to her, but her straight forwardness   scares me.
Me 14 years old. In the beginning stage of adolesence. The age  that's hard to deal with. If I describe myself with one word it   would be, crybaby. I'm full of emotions. I'm naive and I easily   get mad and easily start laughing.
My little sister 12 years old. I see her as a rival in both   school and personality...although lately I've been pushed   around by her.
My little brother 11 years old. He's a tricky one... a little   scary. He's younger than me but sometimes turns into an older   brother. He's also like a parent to Koro(the dog).
My youngest brother 10 years old. He has a wild imagination, but   he can be a little careless.
My youngest sister 2 years old. She has curly hair that she got   from my mom, and her face is from my dad (especially her   eyes... its what it looks like when the clock hits 8:20) She is  very cute.

This is the first chapter of Aya's diary... I hope I did a decent job (^^;) but I'm going to put alot of work into this so that people will really understand what Aya went through and the strong message that she left for everyone! Her words are very encouraging and inspiring as Pye told me (>v<)v so yah~ I hope everyone enjoys reading this!

- Kiwi